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cwd0310

1 post
31-Jul-2008
2:50 PM
I just had a D&C a week ago. It was my first pregnancy and i was 17 weeks pregnant when they told me my baby was no longer alive. It has been a rough week and i really want to be pregnant but i just dont know if i have it in me to go thru this whole mess again. i am an emotional wreck. I know i have to wait atleast a month before conceiving but everytime i see a pampers commerical or anything baby related i just cry. I am so worried that I will never get to be a mom.
natalie83

4 post s
31-Jul-2008
4:07 PM
Hi, i'm very sorry to hear about your loss. I had a miscarriage the end of May with my first pregnancy too. I know how hard it is to deal with. I still find it difficult sometimes, but it does ease a little as time goes by. Everywhere you look you see pregnant women and little babies, it tears your heart out and you wish it was you and your little one looking forward to a bright future.
When i lost my angel, the only thing which gave me strength to get through it was the thought of becoming pregnant again, though i will never forget the one i lost. I read somewhere the reason the baby left was because it's little body it was in wasn't quite perfect enough, and there was problems, and when the baby has the chance, it will come back to you in a perfect body and you will get to hold your baby....something like that, but i like to think the baby i lost' soul could come back to me and i could love and keep it forever.
I too am frightened to lose another baby, i can't imagine how low i would be if god forbid it happened again. There are lots of women on here who have suffered many and they are unbelievably strong. The thing i always think is, women who haven't had a miscarriage don't realise just how lucky they are to have their little babies born healthy.
But those of us who have miscarried will always appreciate their babies that little bit more, knowing nothing's guaranteed in this world.
I hope you start feeling better and coming to terms with it. It will just take time, but i won't ever truly get over losing my baby, and i'm sure thats true for alot of other people.
Do you have a partner or family/friends who can support you? It makes me feel better talking about it.
Take care anyways, and take time to mourn. Thinking of you, Natalie x