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sammi
44 post s
28-Jul-2008
8:01 AM
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havnt loged on 4 a while as tring to get on with things..but this day next week i have my 2nd apointment with fertility specialist.dreadin it,he wernt that nice last time n hes expectin my ex 2 be with me this time but he wont be.i gota tell him he was cheatin whilst i was losin r 3rd angel.i am not over losin my babies or him...still cant believe he wud do that 2 me...i thought he cared,tellin me we can adopt etc while hes seein some1 else who is now his girlf.how can peop be so creul.hes blown my world apart,wen i needed him the most he hurt me in da worst way posible.y was he trin to get me preg??how did he stop carin about me after all we had been thro??i no lucky excape etc n want a decent man to be the father of my children but it hurts so bad.n now i cannot continue to try 4 children..i cannot stop my wantin to be a mum.i hate how he doesnt feel guilty..i have moved away,never c his kids nemore or our dog....i feel so alone
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Me too
Guest
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28-Jul-2008
12:34 PM
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Dear Sammi, I've read many of your posts and I'm really sorry for all that has happened to you. Several of the docs/nurses I visited/spoke with were not kind, so I know how bad it feels to be faced with returning to one of those. Hang in there. Regarding your ex and your dog... Have you seen the movie Legally Blonde 2? It's not a masterpiece, but it might make you laugh a bit. In the movie, Reese Witherspoon's character poses as a lawyer and helps her hairdresser get her dog back from her mean ex. Your story made me think of that. Is there any way you can get your dog back? My pets have been so comforting to me since my 2 mc's, that it breaks my heart to think of you going through all of this and losing your dog too. Could you ask your ex for the dog? Maybe a small part of his conscience (if he has one) realizes what a lousy wretched thing he did to you and is looking for a way to mend that guilty feeling. Surely he knows that karma is going to catch up to him for what he did. It might make him feel better to give the dog back to you. I don't mean to make you have to talk to/face him again, but if there's a chance to get your dog back, I'd take it. Maybe you have a friend who could assist you in contacting him on your behalf. Just a thought. Best wishes to you that life brings you what you want.
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natalie83
3 post s
28-Jul-2008
9:38 PM
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Hi Sammi. I think what he did to you was disgusting. He is a scumbag. I'm really sorry about your loss, i have saw a few of your messages over the last couple of months. I lost my baby May 31st, around 9wks, and find coming on here like like my little sanctuary if you know what i mean. Reading about and sharing stories is somewhat.... erm, it makes me feel less alone lets say.
Don't even try to understand why he did it. A good person is completely different to someone like him, and it's not possible for us to understand why some people behave they do. I believe we must be 'made' different from them and we have completely different understandings of the world.
You are better off without him thats for sure. You must be so strong to be dealing with what has happened, and my heart goes out to you.
I agree with the person above, you should try to get your dog back, it would be a great comfort to you.
Anyways, take care of yourself and good luck. Keep in touch x
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al23
45 post s
29-Jul-2008
4:48 AM
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hi sammi, so sorry you are still having a bad time of it, basically wanted to agree with what the previous 2 messages say. is there no way you could get your dog back? like metoo said if he knows how much he has hurt you, maybe he might give him/her back through guilt. i am also a pet lover (2 dogs 1 cat) and i can remember when i was at my lowest the dogs would cuddle up with me on the floor quietly and i knew they would never let me down. would be really nice if you could get your dog back as he/she would always be your faithful friend (unlike mr waste of space).
hope your appointment goes ok and the doctor isnt horrible to you. i still feel that you will have a good man to have a child with one day, its just such a shame to waiting part is so hard to do.
thinking of you. ali.x
Last Edited on 29-Jul-2008 4:57 AM
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