I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. Our deepest sympathy goes out to you, your husband and your family.

I can understand the fears you're experiencing right now of the possibility of having another miscarriage as I too share it. My husband and I have a 2 1/2 year old son and experienced 2 miscarriages last year (May & Nov). I had a difficult time recovering from the 2nd miscarriage and had lots of bleeding for almost 2 months. All in all, when I went for my final check up in February this year, we discovered I was/am pregnant. It hurt so much in the beginning because not only were we still dealing with our previous miscarriages and our feelings on everything, we were advised by our doctor to not tell anyone until this pregnancy proved to be viable. They even had me coded as a "miscarriage" on all of my medical paperwork...it was almost as if they weren't giving our baby a chance to even survive. I've been scared senseless since the day I found out about the baby. I am now 7 months pregnant and our second son is due on our first son's 3rd birthday. Even though we only have another 10 weeks to go before we meet our son I'm scared as the days go by.

I guess you'll never be able to completely shake that fear, but you have to learn to respect it in a way. If you plan on trying to conceive again it will be very difficult to enjoy your pregnancy if the fear of another failure remains dominant. I know it's a tough thing to do, but just take things a day at a time. Be thankful for each day you get with that child. Having a miscarriage is a very difficult thing to deal with and an even harder thing to accept/learn to live with.

I wish you luck in the future when you and your husband start trying again...Only God knows what's in store for you and your family...until it's revealed just hang in there. Through this unfortunate situation you'll learn so much...even things you'd prefer to not know.

You're in my thoughts....